"Enter": A Look into Matias' Identity and Activism
After his AIDs diagnosis, Matias began writing more explicitly about the reality of living with a terminal illness. His poems create a liminal space between life and death that allows readers to understand the depth of his suffering and emotions. Matias also hoped his work might spark change in his readers’ minds. He made notes in the margins of his poems highlighting issues of advocacy for gay men, and his published works advocated for more AIDS visibility. Later in his career, Matias advocated for more ethical medical practices for LGBTQ individuals and sufferers of AIDs and HIV. His poems clearly reflect a need for more ethical behaviors, and Matias addresses this issue to provoke conversations with future generations.
Identity and Activism in Youth
In this poem, Matias mentions a homophobic classmate and recalls not being able to defend himself back in the day. It reveals Matias’ desire for change and acknowledgement of his identity as a youth, while also suggesting that Matias now feels proud of his identity.
This poem comes from the first draft of Matias’ book Dances with Disease and Family. In pencil, Matias mentions a conversation with a homophobic cousin. This note represents Matias’ personal battles for advocacy within his own family. He continually fought for recognition of his lifestyle, but did so through communication and poetry.
AIDS Identity and Representation
This poem reveals how AIDS affects one’s mental health. The poem depicts an all-too familiar pattern for Matias as an AIDs suffer: needles and the drawing of blood. Matias attempts to feel hope, but he remains stuck in a liminal space between life and death.
In “Fifth Season,” Matias describes feeling as though he is trapped as a result of his illness. The poem exemplifies his loneliness, fear, and isolation, while also ascribing a mystical spirituality to the experience of living with AIDS.
Matias writes about the loneliness and other emotions he experienced while hospitalized as an AIDs patient. He lets his mind wander through thoughts of medicine, doctors, and his own a complex role in medicine. His prose invites us to experience the pain and fear involved in a hospital visit.
Declaration of an Activist
This short biography reveals Matias’ intentions as an author. He clearly states his hope that his poetry will transform readers through spirituality. This fact makes it clear that Matias’ spirituality extends beyond his LGBTQ identity and into his identity as an AIDs patient, seeking validation and respect for both.